Plunged in my dark horizon....

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

I've learnt not to trust, at least, not anymore
wad's the use of being so high up, and there's no one down there when you look down.
trust - so hard to build, yet so easy to break, and it just cuts deeper and deeper.
A task so easy to carry out, yet done so..
someone, for once, give me something to believe in.
the least you can do is to have responsiblity - to tell me when you have done wrong, to tell me when you aint interested at all, and never to give me tht shit attitude.
for once, give me a token of appreciation, for what i had spent my whole day doing, and what you have not.
for once, give me appreciation of what i committed into, and what you had never thought of doing.
for once, give me the appreciation of what i roped in my family to do, and what you had not done, not even a single touch.
for once, understand that this is for our sake, and i've done it all for you'all.
its not just my marks, its all yours. appreciate it.
BUT NO.
tht's what i didnt got for doing all the hardwork.
NO, not even a word of "thanks" or just "you have done a great job".
NO, I GOT NOTHING IN RETURN.
all i got was some faces and people even smiling away as though nothing had happened.
NO, all i got was sacarsm like i was in the wrong.
NO, not even the least gratitude i deserved, and not even a word of apology.
but YES, being blamed for spending my whole afternoon trying to do what you all had not done is what i got.
no one appreciates, not just one in here.
but, someone, someone who is not even supposed to care a shit abt it symphatises me.
someone who competes with me, came around to CARE abt me.
tnks, i APPRECIATE it.
dont come and give me attitude when you havent done anything
dont think you're right, cze you aint.
the least you can do is get some sincerity in the words u speak.
i dont owe u anything.
for once, dont think you are here to salvage the situation, cze u aint even supposed to be here.
maybe i trusted too much, and this is all i got.
I placed my effort doing it, and you hadnt even done anything, and you come here being the good guy, "saving" everything.
No, this aint gonna happen.
I placed so much trust in hoping you would get things the way i wanted, and
NO, not even a call to say tht u cant do it.
at the least, be responsible enough to call me.
I hate this, i hate the ppl i cant trust - i hate everybody.

maybe i should just be an introvert like lty.
the least you can do is show some appreciation and apologise for the words u had given to me.
just a broken hearted man,
no one cares, no one bothers, left out in the circle of trust.
no more trust, at least not too much.
its just being broken into too many pieces tht i dont even know where to start with.

and please, i no nid yr sympathy, dont come here asking me what i want u to do.
hate tht qns.
if you dont feel pleased, then dont be, no one asked you to compromise.
If you are just sincere enough to appreciate what i've done, touch your heart, it would lead you.
for the last time, never ask me what i want you to do, cze you might as well get lost.
asking this qns shows tht u feel tht u aint in the wrong at all, and i DONT NID someone who doesnt care, to fake a smile and say: HEY, WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?

to you reading this, i've just found out how you had difficutlities in your first half the year.
now im stuck in this situation i cant get myself out of.
i understand, i finally understand how it feels. im sorry.

its the least you can do...

put tht trust back into me and piece it tgt.
i do not nid a hypocrite to help me.
a tnks or a sorry might just help.
but it would never give me a full set of "trust"

at least i got my family, tht's where i always told you tht yr family is yr priority.
the only thing u can depend on is them.
u never listened, u never did, but its not too late to regret, cze they are always there everyday.
love them like u never got a second chance to do so, cze u might not see them one day. its too late by then.

words can nver explain how i feel,
maybe crying out in a corner would help, hope so,
but no one cares, no one bothers, no one feels for me.

i will always be waiting, but maybe its time to let go of tht trust you gave for them, they are just gonna disappoint you anyway, like how they always used to.

Entered The Dark Horizon At [4:58 PM] Sharp.

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About the one and only individual:D*
-The pathetic guy who would never fall in love again
-thinks he has the most perfect family in the whole wide world :)
-doesnt play dota or any game that u can name.
-For the last time IM NOT EMO!!
- simply nothing to talk. dont call me emo..*rawr* :)
- wads the definition of emo anw...
-doesnt like pop music, prefers soothing music like may classical or songs like "her diamonds", jazz may be good.
-pop songs are poop songs that are noisy instead of smelly:)no offence
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To put my heart and soul into my studying
Loveees*
Nothing much, must 知足常乐
Hates*
Liars - cze their pants would always be on fire
the world - always trying to get out of the shit that i have brought myself upon
people who speaks vulgarities - they dont make sense in a sentence
bullies - they are merely ppl seeking attention

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