Plunged in my dark horizon....

Monday, August 10, 2009

People say how much trust is important, but it just isn’t the same now and then. If it’s the last thing I hope you would do for me, it would be stop giving me false hopes of any kind – don’t give me hopes that you would return one day; don’t give me hopes that you would change someday. I never thought of how much surprise I’m going to get in the future, but I just hope they aren’t a mirage. Just hoping that they are real, touchable, and realistic. If the last thing I hope I could get from you, it would be asking you to look me in the eye whenever you talk to me. Because only then, most importantly, would I know you are talking to me, and subsequently, I know that it actually comes from the bottom of your heart. Mind’s in whirl, everything aren’t what I had thought of. Never thought this would happen. No backup plans though, living everyday by the hand. Always changing my mindset towards my future. Wonder, which is going to lead me to success. Sometimes, people don’t say it not because they don’t want to, but cause they don’t have the courage to. There’s always a limit to everything. The strongest man in the world might just be brought down by a tickle. No one knows. Please, don’t get it so over your head that you had forgotten who else is standing beside you.

No one said how much he or she bothered, neither did they how much they didn’t. I’ve had it with you and your attitude. Always trying to get the best of me. How I wished you would just move out of my life. Always bringing me down. I know what I’m saying; no need someone else to remind me. Please, one man’s meet is another man’s poison. I like it; you might not, but for once, just shut that darn mouth up and don’t give me faces. Can’t be bothered by that face ready to be smacked. I want acceptance of what I’m doing, not some rejections that you don’t even know why you are doing it. Hate these kinds of people. What are friends for? Let me tell you – they are there to bring you down when you had just got back up. No one really accepts your idea; they think it’s crazy, until you show them its possible. Don’t shut me at the mindset that whatever I’m doing is wrong. F.Y.I, you aren’t that great either. You are just some empty shell that some headless souls follow. Just like you, they are living with an empty heart, shadowing your views like a dog. No independence, no points of view, they are better off in the trash bin. Sometimes, follow your gut feeling and if it’s wrong, just accept it. No one succeed without any failure. And let me warn you, when I fail, don’t come running like a mad freak telling me my mistakes. I know where I went wrong. I certainly don’t need an idiot repeatedly telling me off in front of everyone. I accept where I went wrong. My ego is not going to be stomped by you or anyone else. Save your efforts. I hate you. Thought you were there to help, but never did I expect you were just like anyone else. You said no one cared, but had you tried accepting? For something that you want, you get it, there is not a need to tell anyone else about it. Not only will they not care, they wont even bother to hear about it. Strive for your own success. Everyone’s independent, they suck your benefits and throw away your ideas, until they see that it actually works when you had tried for millions of times. They reap what you had groomed for so long. No choice…that’s what “friends” do. I don’t deny how I had done so, but believe me, it’s a part and parcel of life. There’s no need to complain since it will numb you. I hate you. Hear me, I HATE YOU. Life’s so hard to live.

Just for people reading this, each paragraph actually describes one people. Which means this post actually shows two people that had left an “impact” in my life. Haix...why is life so hard to live

Entered The Dark Horizon At [1:53 PM] Sharp.

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About the one and only individual:D*
-The pathetic guy who would never fall in love again
-thinks he has the most perfect family in the whole wide world :)
-doesnt play dota or any game that u can name.
-For the last time IM NOT EMO!!
- simply nothing to talk. dont call me emo..*rawr* :)
- wads the definition of emo anw...
-doesnt like pop music, prefers soothing music like may classical or songs like "her diamonds", jazz may be good.
-pop songs are poop songs that are noisy instead of smelly:)no offence
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To put my heart and soul into my studying
Loveees*
Nothing much, must 知足常乐
Hates*
Liars - cze their pants would always be on fire
the world - always trying to get out of the shit that i have brought myself upon
people who speaks vulgarities - they dont make sense in a sentence
bullies - they are merely ppl seeking attention

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